(skip this if you think i'm not talking about you)
since primary school, TRUST is definitely not a key factor i used to win people over. and i don't really give a damn whether or not you gave your trust to me. to put it frank, only friends whom i care about how they think of me. and seriously, when one of them pass a judgement on me. even if it's a minor, i will get affected. i'm serious. maybe i just don show it out. but i do reflect. as in, it's important to reflect. b'cos that's the only way to make yourself a better friend. not a fair-weathered kind but a friend who will be always there for you.
i'm happy that you shared your results with me immediately and even bothers to tell me how you feel. but you said something that makes me paused for a sec. if i'm so not worthy of your trust. it's okay. b'cos i should really get used to it. maybe, we can be superficial friend? like.. movies accompany or foodie friend, maybe even brunch mate. but we cant be good friends.
i thought it through, i looked at the letter you wrote, i frowned when i saw "very good friend" cos i don't think we even deserve this title. cos mentally i'm still not. and i don want to appear as if i'm really craving for such a title. or even position. that's fine with me. you are always lying. ALWAYS! sometimes i really knew it. but i keep my mouth shut. cos i know your lies are "just-for-laughs" but hey, i still give you the benefit of doubt. but it seems that you never trust me when i encountered such a situation. since you don't even trust me, you shouldn't have even said that you will treat me as your very good friend. maybe you wrote it but you don't mean it. maybe in the first place, i shouldn have treat everything so seriously, i should have make this friendship a casual one.
and i know i'm being naggy here. ARGH~

(HEY! i'm back from the emo corner)


i know i look kind of retard.